As I bank in letters onto the screen my mom is happily sewing her outfit for this year's raya. She has asked me to come up with a design for my own and I wish I had some help. Feels weird tho that now it's only us two when it used to be the fuss of four. Hmmm.

The interview at Mediacorp went well for me. The test was a whole other thing. Internship has not even started and I can already feel the pressure, especially from those who expected me to take other professions beside journalism. I told my friend that I am completely leaving this to the 'hands' of Allah, otherwise known as redha because only he knows what is going to happen and why. Oh dear god I sound so..hmmm.

I wish my legs were not short and stump. That's all.

Been very listless, and maybe even souless lately. Its like my mind, heart, body are all at different places at one time and most of the time I catch myself in a daze or just simply lethargic. It's very irritating especially since semester is about to end so deadlines are nearing. The anxiety and talks of internship is also tiring. But what's bugging me more lately is how everyone is not taking me seriously. I am a young adult and when I set my mind on something, I mean it with all my heart but yeah people still are like whatever and do as they wish. Yeah I am a very fickle person but when I put my foot down on something I frigging mean it. Stop trying to control my life. I really wanna go on a vacation with my family, get away from all these madness and vultures.